![]() breathed so deep i thought i'd drown tag: alekai ☆ outfit: ♥ notes: this shall be fun ;) | The incurable panic that rises within me on occasions too often to consider rare had settled momentarily when I had been introduced to none other than a quaint red-head by the calling of Isolt. What business she had with me was out of my own reasoning but perhaps it was simply fate that had drawn us together in the chance for an opportunity at forging a friendship in the midst of my darkest hours. We talked and browsed and I actually enjoyed a nice latte on the side - it was the single most enjoyable moment to date since the change. But life, no matter if you were human or otherwise, had its ways of pushing you onward and away from the comforting embrace of an amicable person's company. And so we had to part ways. As I left the shop, a sudden emotion overwhelmed me in an unexpected way, I had not wanted to return to my secluded abode and so I had walked the city streets for hours upon hours. I had explored every store that there was to find, some grabbing my interest immediately and others repelling me away as soon as I stepped through the door. And when the darkened hours of dusk finally settled upon us all, I found that I still did not want to return home just to be alone with my morbid mentality once again. I desired to be in the company of the friendly red-head again and to converse about nothings that became so much more to me.. distractions from the hell I was enduring. She had been my lifeline for the day, my unsung heroine of a time that passed too quickly, and now I was succumbing to lonliness again. Perhaps it was not in my best interest, but I had wandered far from the familiar city streets, carrying myself further into suburbia as I aimlessly traipsed along. It was not until that I saw the entry gates of Hyde Park did I realize where my fate was bringing me to next and as the first stars of twilight began to twinkle in the deep blue sky, I found my place amidst the silence. Few people were just now leaving the park, their headlights blazing through the cool, dark tones of the late evening as they retreated in their vehicles back to their families and friends. Loneliness can be a drug so deadly, driving some to places they would have never imagined to visit in their right mind, at times that they did not need to be lingering. But what bad could come from a cool night's walk in a park so lovely? The nudging feeling at the back of my mind indicated that I knew better, but perhaps I just didn't care. My loneliness thrives on danger. |