Perhaps it is a blessing that Tobi had the capability to block out some of the worst memories in his past and now allow them to take so much effect on his life today. Hardships can force a person to go two ways: one way a person could forever be stuck; while another could learn from such cruelty and become something different. By retaining that childlike innocent it allowed the boy to keep such a fun and playful façade. True, he may be stunted by this. A boy trapped in a man's body, but he was still capable of growing. He had the ability to see the world with such an innocent and naïve look, something that many are incapable of doing. In some ways it was an advantage. He could think outside the box, way way outside the box. However, some people are incapable of retaining such childlike innocence. Through cruelty Raven was unable to enjoy her childhood as she should, such memories fleeting now. She was aloof, suspicious of others, and unable to look at the world with innocent eyes. To her the world was cold and cruel, everyone had intentions of treating her with malice, and there wasn't anyone she could trust. Yet the young curly-haired woman was trying. Each day with Tobi caused the young woman to slowly ease her guard down. Spending much of her time with Alexis, as she could, allowed her to easily create a connection with the fox-girl that seemed to share a piece of shared history. Isolt and Nadya were just an extension of the two threads she had created with the spotted feline and the red vixen, but even with those two she was still slightly wary. After all, she had yet to have a long-term relationship with another that was positive.

There was nothing wrong with lying down on the smooth cold dark green grass besides the naked deviant. As a Were she was accustomed to seeing others without fur or clothes, but in her pack it was wrong to walk in such a way, but she always kept her clothes when she changed due to her own personal reasons. Her slate eyes did state at his side or back, but mostly at the balls of gas burning millions of miles away. Sighing softly, with content, she would press her head deeper into the back of her hand as she laid there still. It wasn't uncommon to be this close beside him, especially lying down, and it would seem all those months of sleeping beside his form helped inhibit the capability of her doing this just now. Raven had grown used to his feline habit, as he continued to stare at her quietly, but still feeling a bit unnerved she would close her eyes to shut that uneasiness out. Hearing him move around her eyes remained closed, his close proximity reassuring her he hadn't left her behind just yet. It was when she felt his hands pull on her soft golden-brown locks did she reopen her eyes. A small grin was given to the boy as he continued playing with her hair, seeing no need to swat him away just yet, her blue-grey eyes locked with his own dark depthless pools. It was when she moved behind her head did she start to get concerned, predators did not do well when other predators were behind them. Puzzled she would move her head some so it would be in perfect alignment with his own as he stuck his face far too close to her own. As he spoke his inquiry she was about to say yes before his head lowered slowly as his lips pressed against her own.

Every young girl always dreamed about how they would get their first kiss. Some girls thought they would get it by the swing set from the cute boy on the playground at school, others thought they'd get it during their first homecoming dance, perhaps some wanted it to be along the sands of the beach, or a top of the Ferris wheel...there were so many places one could possibly have their first kiss. Yet such sweet and innocent dreams were not things that Raven had thought of ever since she was a little pup. There may have been a time when the young scarred lupine had dared to think of such silly frivolous things, but that was so long ago. The only thing she could remember of that wish was the sweet scent of rain, the cool soft feeling of raindrops falling on her head, and the roar of thunder shaking the ground as lightning flashed above. Perhaps her first kiss, lying in a field with a distant thunderstorm going on, wasn't her wish...it could even be said it was better...Indeed his sudden forced and demanding kiss had caused her instincts to cause her lithe frame to remain still on the ground, as shock began to take a firm grip on her nerves. As soon as his teeth move to nip teasingly at her upper lip, blue-grey eyes widen as she simply stared at him. Hearing him snicker she watched his face disappear replaced with the starry night sky. Many thoughts were rushing through her head, her heart pounding, as she slowly rose and sat upright, her fingers tracing her lips. Sure she had a crush on the boy; maybe her feelings had grown to more over the past few days, especially after he had showed off his domineering state with the vampire, but she hadn't seen any signs that he would think the same way as her. Then again he could have, but she was far too blind to recognize. As the shock began to simmer, her brows furrowed as she slowly got up to her feet, slate eyes searching for any sign of him. Always she had been hurt by her pack, abused by them, mistreated always. With her Mother dead and her Father continuing such harsh treatments she had been unable to trust the only important male figure in her life. Tobias kiss, although was quite intoxicating, left a pit of fear in her stomach. If this was a trick, then it was a cruel one her performed on her, and she would not allow it. She wanted to get to the bottom of this and fast. She was already a fragile girl and if this miss meant nothing or held no value then it would truly crush her by being another negative blow to her already shattered self.

"Tobi....Tobi!"

The young woman shouted for the boy as she began to head towards the long thick grasses. Her voice did not hold hate or malice, but there was hint of anxiety. As the woman trudged through the long grasses she could not hear any sign of his position nor could she have a good view or outline image of his figure. She was slightly angry if this was all some sort of joke and it worried her to no end that he had no ability to understand the severity of how crucial it was to know if that kiss had meant anything. After searching for him, unable to locate him, a frustrated sigh came out of the curly-haired woman as blue-grey eyes narrowed. With as much firmness as she could possibly muster, without sounding mean or demanding, she spoke aloud for him to hear- wherever he may be.

"Tobi you can't just kiss me. I'm not your girlfriend or your mate."

Stomping her foot to the ground letting out a huff, her arms would fold in front of her. The summer wind would gently pull her golden-brown locks from around her face and neck, allowing those soft ringlets to cascade like a waterfall down her back and shoulders. Turning her upper torso left to right, searching for any sign of his presence she would call out to him, even though her tone continued to sound firm, there was a slight hesitant sound of timidity in her voice.

"Now...you come here right now."

You cheeky little bastard.

I'd Rather Feel Pain Then Nothing At All

Raven