It was so easy to get lost within the sensation of those emotions and, more than that, the tangle of sensation itself. He was determined in every sense to move slowly. To allow her to become accustomed to each touch and caress upon her already scarred form. Her body so baring the marks of those whom had not touched her with any true gentleness. He knew, desperately so, just how far she had come to allow him even this. Perhaps how far they had both come and as such, somewhere within the back of his mind lingered that fear he might press too far and unravel her nerve. Tobias entirely assured he could hardly bare it if she stopped him now. It was easy to lift her upward, that girlish shriek stirring a chuckle to his own lips as that ever cheeky grin remained in place. Tobias shifting to allow himself to lower to his knees and at last ease her upon her own back within that soft, dry grass that afforded them a screen of sorts against the outside world. Her dress and too- the undergarments beneath were far easier in this position to slide from her figure, leaving her entirely exposed to his gaze as he straddled her form and yet there was little save for affection within the gold of those eyes and too that undeniable lust that seemed to turn almost intuitively within him. Animal and man both in agreement as to just what they desired tonight. That dark-haired boy assured to keep his touches gentle all the same. For ever bit of want and need and desire the mere sight of her stirred within him the knowledge of just what she was permitting him in those moments hardly faltered.

Her confidence had so eternally been fragile in so many things, even if she did her best to hide it. He still saw thorugh that façade if only because, perhaps, he was almost no different. His other half was surely almost overconfident in many of his actions and yet so much of that too came so readily from insecurity and that ever present feeling of ineptness. It was a blessing, perhaps, that when that other side so took control there was little within him so capable of understanding his own short comings and yet he understood, surely, that he was different from those around him. Tobias so often frustrated with himself and his lack of ability to simply exist as those around him so took for granted. That ready confidence was so rarely the result of tree assurance and far more often merely the presentation of being whom no longer cared for the outcome. Caring had become too hard in so many things for that side of himself and yet, here and now the sadness of that become all the clearer and too perhaps, so allowed him to see how tightly the woman beneath him gripped those threads of bravery. She desired this, surely as much as he himself and yet that need to protect herself was surely just as potent. The young man so determined to circumnavigate it tonight, if he could and stop her feeling even the faintest hint of insecurity or inferiority then surely he would.

As if she could ever be inferior to anyone! She, whom stood for so much and so many when no one else would. How it made him love her all the more! Even if he might never truly find the words for it, his gaze barely noticing those scars that danced upon her frame, his mind taking some ready satisfaction in the crossing of those lines all the same before he pushed back those more delinquent tendencies. His lips easily caught her own once more, that want so pressed within that gesture as his hands moved down her form, relishing the warmth and smooth of her skin before his head moved lightly away from her lips, only to find that place on her neck, the woman turning it easily to allow him all the more access as his teeth bit down upon that flesh as he so often liked to do. Marking his possessions in that entirely primal way and yet he hardly found he cared to control that urge before his lips continued that trail downward. He was aware of her own hands upon the hard plains of his chest and yet he made no effort to stop that exploration as his lips brushed against the first soft swell of flesh upon her chest, moving to brush over that sensitive peak as a gasp was stolen from her lips. The way she suddenly seemed to squirm beneath him was entirely enticing, her form so easily responding in just that fashion he desired and so adored lavishing upon her. The young man so determined to have her entirely ready for what he desired tonight, her fingers brushing that shaggy black hair aside to meet the amber of his gaze as he glanced up at last, only to feel her press against his leg in that silent request to have him shift.

That surprise upon his features was surely clear and yet he could hardly deny that....pleasure that so came from her taking that control from him. Tobias moving to shift obediently to her command for perhaps the first time in the entirety of that relationship. So allowing himself to be vulnerable for her as he rolled easily onto his own back, only to find her astride him a moment later. Her hands continued to run so pleasing across his chest as her lips found his own, the gesture readily returned before she broke that kiss, nipping suddenly at his ear in a fashion that seemed to stir that want within him all over again. Tobias struggling to keep himself still as her hand graced lower and lower, the boy hardly able to keep that anticipation from himself as her finger suddenly graced his inner thigh, his breath inhaling sharply in response. His jeans desperately uncomfortable and fair too tight in that moment. God she was veritably playing with fire. This the boldest she had ever been! It was with almost rapt attention that he moved to pull himself up and onto his elbows, watching as she undid that button and zip off his jeans, Tobias lifting his hips slightly to assist her in ridding him off them, that entirely prominent arousal completely her fault he was sure and yet- why not let her see just what she did to him? Tobias hardly ashamed in any sense as he lay back down, letting her lips find his again, relishing that feel of skin on skin as a soft sound of satisfaction fell from his lips. His hips shifted almost without his consent, seeking any friction he might find upon that part of himself that desired her attention the most before he found himself concentrating once more upon the progression off her lips.

The sudden, unexpected touch of her hand against that most intimate part of himself saw a gasp readily erupt from within him, eyes widening as his fingers tightened their grip upon her waist, that teasing look in her eye so assuring him she knew entirely what she was doing in this even if it was but the first time, that second purposeful stroke resulting in that groan clawing at his throat, his hips shifting to meet her hand, to attempt to encourage her all the more and take only more of him and yet- perhaps, it was a sign of his inexperience alone that at last saw him forced to shift their positions again. The boy not yet practiced enough to hold out against her glorious touches as his arms suddenly encircled her, rolling her with him until she rested upon that grass and beneath him again. His breathing was entirely unsteady now, thanks completely to his enjoying her stokes far, far too much, that challenge her gaze had held hardly unanswered. Tobias assured he could take it no longer as one knee pressed against the inside of her thigh, encouraging her to part her legs for him. The bright gold of his gaze met her own for that single moment then, lips pressing to her own a final time if only to draw her thoughts to him alone and away from what he knew would be, at least at first, of slight discomfort and yet he wanted her to join this, desperately so. His actions careful, slow, drawing her into that wholly passionate kiss, one hand resting upon her hip to still her before his hips rolled forward to enter her- at last.

madness, as you know, is like gravity: all it takes is a little push