There are too many memories.
He remembers the first time he felt blood, warm and wet against his cheek. He remembers death, and how, for him it had meant life. He remembers the way her organs felt against his skin, and the moment he knew it was wrong. He remembers even though he shouldn't, even though he was too young.
Now, he cannot stop remembering.
Now, the thrum of hearts beating is all he can hear.
There are lyrics that are scribed into his heart; over and over, the words are italics and carved in through the muscle and the membrane. The songs that they recite are always morbid. The melodies always sound like blood and bones and grenades.
On the outside he is unwavering, with his lips pulled tight (an underscore drawn beneath the word 'stoic') and his eyes dark and glass and empty. Inside, he is rattling. There are things that grow and evolve in the pit of his belly, that forge holes through his flesh and around his organs for the roots that grow out of them. There are things that are dark, and cruel, and as empty as his eyes, and he is their vessel.
Inside, he is rattling.
Inside, he is wrong.
He is veiled in death; the smells of it are sick and sweet, and they curl around the contours of his body like fog across mountains.
He is so wrong.
And so, he made the Gods themselves bend at the knee.