if these wings could fly for the rest of our lives
I kind of felt a little bad that no one had ever given Alexis a birthday party before - at least, I'm assuming that no one had ever given her one before. She seemed pretty taken back by this whole birthday ordeal, like she didn't quite know what one really was. I was determined to fix that though. That's what good friends did right? They gave their friends birthday parties and memorable moments and made them feel ultra extra special! Alexis certainly deserved to feel ultra special. Hell, she deserved a good friend! I wasn't going to disappoint her! Nope! Still, I got a little side tracked, the mention of that cake bringing my thoughts right back to where they should be - on cake! Cake, cake, cake! A small shrug crossed my shoulders as Alexis asked which kind, "Whatever kind you want, Alexis! It's your birthday! We can get a white cake with white frosting or a yellow cake with chocolate frosting or a chocolate cake with chocolate frosting or we can get something fancy like...a red velvet cake or something..." In truth, I haven't actually had all the cakes I've listed, but I've seen pictures of them online and I've heard of them! Okay, maybe this cake thing would be just as exciting for me as it was for her. After all, the sweets I had where I grew up were nothing like the ones I'd had here!

I found myself continuing on about what we could surely do for her birthday - besides just getting an orange and a cake. After all, if she liked books, she should definitely get one for her special day! It didn't seem all that out of her way, even if they'd only just met. I couldn't help the way I absolutely beamed as Alexis informed me that it sounded like a great birthday - yay!!! I really wanted her to love it! I was already planning the event in my head when we started talking about books. It was really sweet of her to offer to teach me to read, I almost felt bad admitting I knew how. Still, I wasn't oblivious to the way she looked at me with such awe when I told her of the school I went to as a child. It was entirely lackluster when compared to the schools here. Definitely not like those tv shows with those perfect clean amazing classrooms, what I wouldn't have given to go to a school like that! Still, I was quite proud of myself when I mentioned that college I'd worked so hard to get into, that enthusiastic sound of Alexis' voice caused me to giggle. "I am going silly! That's why I'm here! It's winter break right now though, I'm kind of scared to go." The truth fell from my lips far too easily but I was never really all that secretive of a creature. "I hear the colleges here are really big with lots of people." I couldn't help the way I fidgeted. What if none of them liked me? What if I got lost? What if I was in over my head? I guess, at least I had Alexis as a friend. Even if I didn't make friends at school, that counted for something.

I was excited to meet Alexis' other friend! I liked meeting people and maybe I could become friends with her too and then all three of us would be besties! How amazing would that be?! I thought it sounded awesome and Alexis was willing to introduce us. This could be so great! I didn't dwell on it long, however, before she'd asked me about my parents and soon enough I was going on and on about them. I mean, I love them so much, it's only natural right? I couldn't help the smile on my lips as Alexis claimed my family was amazing and warmly I nodded in agreement. They had been amazing. I missed them. I missed those times we'd spent together. But now I have to grow up all by myself. I'd be okay though, I was determined to do them proud. However, now was not the time to dwell on that. Now was the time to dwell on COFFEE. I listened to her intently as she shook her head, unwilling to make me this coffee only because she didn't know how. "Weeeellll...." I started, dragging the word out, "Maybe Alexander can teach you when you take me to see it?! That would be cool, wouldn't it?!" After all, I was determined to try my friend's coffee, clearly we just had to get over this whole making it hurdle! It couldn't be that hard, could it?