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She smirks at my reaction to the coffee, telling me that cream or sugar would probably help. I glance once more toward the bar where all the condiments are and duck my head once more at all the people still milling around it. I turn back at her with a sheepish smile as I lean over the cup. "I just enjoy the smell." When I take a bite of the pastry, my eyes light up and I look at Nadya as she explains what it is and what's in it. Most of it goes over my head since I've never heard of chocolate or croissants or stuff like that. All I know is that its delicious and I wouldn't mind more of it sometime. She shrugs off my apology when she tells me what happened to her pack. I can't know that kind of sadness so it just makes me more sad thinking about what she must have gone through. I lost my mother when I was born so I didn't really grieve. Sure, sometimes I would wonder what she looked like, what she was like personality wise and if she loved me but then I just feel stupid. I was in her womb, not out in the world yet so how could she love something she didn't know yet? Of course I've seen the pregnant women in my pack stroking their stomachs and talking gently to whoever's inside and that always made me think of my mom. Did she do that when I was inside? I never got up the nerve to ask dad about her because everytime I even brought her up, he just got more angry and the beatings started. Nadya's comment about not missing what you never really had hits home for me when I think about my mom. I never really knew what it was like to have a mom because she was gone before I was able to acknowledge her. I nod sadly and look down at my coffee. At her sudden question if I'm staying anywhere, I look up and hesitate a minute. It would be alright to tell her right? It's not like she's going to ask directions to Raven's house and if she already knows that there's nothing to worry about cause they must be friends, right? I smile shyly. "Yes, with a friend. She offered me a place to stay." I watch with a little disappointment as Nadya starts gathering her things as if to leave. I'm not really ready for our encounter to end but I guess all things must come to an end. I stand up with her, still gripping my coffee. I want to take it with me to Raven's, at least until the smell fades. Maybe then I'll chunk it. I look up when she tells me that her brother's friend is is on edge so she won't invite me to come along but asks about tomorrow. My face lights up. "Yes! We can do something tomorrow." I'm eager already, my blue eyes bright. I glance hesitantly toward the door then back at her. "So...I'll see you then?" I know that we should be saying good bye now or something of the sort. I wait for her answer, willing to walk to the door with her before waving and heading down the alley toward Raven's house. I'll get to tell her how I made another friend today. ![]() |