I suppose some part of myself was actually mildly flattered that I was rather sure the majority of Kat's attitude was based entirely upon the fact I was paying attention to another women. Trying to draw an emotional response from the girl was often akin to trying to draw blood from a stone- not that I actually ever would attempt to draw blood from anything, it seems a decidedly messy process and past experiences have led me to be believe blood is generally drawn with a syringe, the very type that would no doubt result in a rather sudden state of unconsciousness in myself. Hmm, I may need to find a new metaphor. The fighting, as always, was entirely better left to Kat despite my single contribution to toss the fire extinguisher towards the vampire whom had actually dared to lay his hands on her. Evidently neither of us are particularly good at seeing the other within the hands of someone else and yet I might be willing to suggest that in this particular area I might be mildly more...capable of concealing the depth of my own emotional response. Alright, so I hit him with a fire extinguisher, that was, at best, excusable given the situation- had he been simply some other man I suppose I might have been distinctly more annoyed and while no less inclined to throw something I may well have refrained. Kat, unfortunately is rather restricted in just how much she can express any sort of dislike for the blonde girl clinging to me, my attempts to actually cut off my powers having failed to do anything at all save for very nearly seeming to spur the girl on. Why could I turn it on so easily and yet never seem capable of switching it off? Well- I at least knew the answer to the first part of it, almost every incidence of my actually using my power having resulted from merely needing to look at Kat, the woman involved almost every time my abilities backfired.

After all, I don't simply create desire, I can...sense it, feel it, manipulate it in other people, individuals already attracted to one another having proven by far the easiest targets to afflict, they just needed a little tweaking to increase it and therein, to a certain extent, lay the very cause of my problem. It's surprising, I know, that I can actually engage my mind when I desire to and yet while I've never seen entirely fit to mention it I can...feel Kat's desire when I'm with her, just as I have forever been aware of my own- this energy of sorts having somehow come into my range, somehow I'd become capable of grasping it like a physical weapon and yet....using it on her would be....cheating, taking such an emotion and increasing it merely to get exactly what I want is hardly my style and honestly I'm not entirely sure that isn't one step away from some sort of date rap drug I seem to have been blessed with creating. It is Kat's presence alone that seems to send my ability into overdrive and with Kat being a target I have no desire to afflict, well, I have to aim it at someone until I can learn to actually control the levels of...lets call it energy I seem to create. If I can't turn it off I have to send it somewhere and right now it is merely unfortunate that every bit of desire I have for Kat and whatever she desires in turn is merely thrown towards this unfortunate blonde girl. I really have to learn how to at least keep this...gift of mine at an acceptable level of manipulation, right now I was acting as little more then some sort of storage unit for the emotions of desire or lust or love for any being whom worked past- although really I prayed we wouldn't meet any other men tonight, I truly had no idea how to stop such an ability leeching towards them as well. Why the vampires hadn't been affected I hardly know, I suppose I was focused on the girl and well, some part of my truly...despised those men. Whatever other thoughts I might have had upon the topic of my own ability and my desperate attempts to actually work out how to control it were ended by Kat's rather snappy retort.

I think I actually felt myself sigh, agitation is not really an emotion I do, anger certainly isn't and truthfully I am hardly annoyed with Kat at all, she should be irritated. Maybe she never truly voiced any of her actual emotions in regards to myself and to be honest I think I was almost relieved, feelings are not really my great strength, relationships not exactly an area for which I am expecting a prize either and yet I...knew, hell, I'd know for months what she felt, at least to a certain extent and I suppose I understood what a woman with her hands very nearly down my pants would do to such feelings, hell, had a man been attempting to do the same to her I am entirely sure my words may have been less charming then they generally are. That hardly means however, that.....maybe just once I'd like to hear her actually say it, to give some actual indication that maybe, one day, she'd like to be just more then the friend I slept with one time. I already offered to make it more then just a one night stand, it's her turn now- though I suppose I always did say I was willing to wait. Hmm, so many things we really should discuss and yet...so many I know we won't. Denial really is my greatest weapon.

"Yes Kat, being very near assaulted by a strange girl I have been trying for several minutes to keep calm was my ideal plan for this night, along with murdering two vampires."

I simply kept my voice level, the words perhaps holding a slight sarcasm I had not entirely intended and yet I was willing enough to let her take that stab towards me, I suppose I understood, after all- but I was trying, she knew I couldn't control it, at least not yet. The young woman eventually seemed to find herself entirely taken enough with inhaling my jacket like a drug to actually release her hold on me, head tilted slightly forward to see beneath the lenses of my glasses and make she wasn't actually bleeding or injured, her chest rather thankfully covered now as I managed the slightest of smirks at Kat's words, leaning away from the blonde to stand upright once more.

"Well it seems you made a good choice."

I merely chuckled, that deep baritone rumbling softly within my chest, the dark gold of my hair falling back into my gaze once more as my attention focused now more fully on my...partner, her agitation it would seem, not yet fully expressed as I merely allowed her to continue her verbal assault. How could someone so truly exquisite ever believe I had...desires for anyone else? This time however, her words held what might have almost been a sneer, that tone grating against me far more then I had any desire to actually let her see, forcing myself to answer her calmly once more. Fighting with her, after all, would achieve nothing.

"No part of my power is on purpose Kat, I can't help what it does, I can't control it and you know that. I will learn, but it is not an easy power to practice with, contrary to what you might believe or what you seem to think I enjoy. I am trying and that will have to be enough- for now, I apologize if you find it insufficient."

I was doing the best I could, trying to control something I had no real ability to predict. Did she have any idea how embarrassing it was to have fully grown men chase me down the street? Granted had she wanted to see me actually run she merely should have tried this from the beginning, evidently a homosexual bar full of men is an excellent way to discover just how far I can sprint. I pushed the thought aside for now, moving to help the blonde girl stand again, gently directing her up the street and towards the station. It was merely unfortunate really- that I was going to be forced to relinquish my jacket, the pained expression on my face perhaps entirely to clear as I stepped back outside, wandering back towards Kat now, offering her that same ready grin before what might have almost been a whisper from her seemed to gain my attention. An apology, from Kat, I am sure is almost akin to a solar eclipse, a rarely seen or heard of phenomenon that happens once every few hundred years and I suppose that alone actually made it....meaningful, one hand reaching forward to easily sliding a finger beneath her chin, tilting her head up softly.

"It's fine- Kat."

I merely let my lips brush against her own in something almost feather-light before leaning away once more, coming to rest beside her now, with no joke or laugh for a moment even I knew it was better left.

"If another man acted with you the same way that girl had just done with me I would have done the same, I understand and I'm sorry you had to see it, I will get better in time, I..."

I paused momentarily, frowning ever so slightly now before sighing once more, resigning myself to the fact it was better said then unsaid.

"It's not only women, you saw with the Leopard that night, men seem to find my power equally as appealing, but for the first time last week there was a child...I.....she couldn't have been more then eight years old Kat, nothing happened because I realised quickly enough that I was...influencing her...but...do you have any idea how embarrassing that is? I'm going to get arrested and no lawyer I have is going to be able to make that charge go away."

I merely shook my head once more, hand reaching up to run through my hair, letting it fall back in the same haphazard tangle as always.

"Believe me when I say I'm trying to learn but- let's talk about something else. How adverse would you be to my putting a Christmas tree in your house? A plastic one of course, pine needles send my need to clean into overdrive. I know your feelings on furniture but this would be more a temporary installation- if you think you can handle it, hmm?"




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so you want to play with magic?