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My mind has been reeling since my last encounter with Raven and Tetradore. Both gave me an offer to find out more about what it means to be a Were but I'm not sure I want to take that step. I want to know who I am, sure, but at what cost? Leaving the coyote pack for strangers? I don't know how I feel about that. I hate that I have memories I can't unlock. I hate that I don't know anything about my parents or who raised me before the coyotes. I hate that I supposed am half human but I know next to nothing about them. I need to take all this in and process it. I need to figure out my next step. Caesar will be devastated if I leave the pack, as will half of the pack. I can't speak for some of the females. I think they want the power of the alpha female position but are too scared to challenge and they know I am most favored by Caesar. They want to fill the void that I refuse to, to carry his pups for the next generation of alphas. The whole mating thing is just too weird for me. I feel like boys still have cooties or something. Sure, I have hormones but they don't kick in around Caesar like they seem to for the other females. He can have as many heirs as he wants from the rest of the pack. I'm just fine as I am. I wander through the forest, kicking at pine cones and growling at trees that loom nearby. My nerves are on edge and I keep hearing noises. When I see a large shadow nearby, I pause, my hackles up as my ears prick forward. "Who's there and what do you want?" |